Star Wars, Sushi and Sunburns!

These are the three things that consumed MOST of my recent trip to LA! It is a good thing that I am just as big of a nerd as the people I choose to hang out with cause we were super "geeked" out all weekend.

It started with a quick breakfast, and then a movie, Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides 3D!

Now lemme tell you something, I am used to being in Dallas, so when I pay $18 for a movie, I don't expect much, but apparently in LA they feel the need to give you a little more for your money. Starting with gold coins in a little "pirate's booty" sack. Unfortunately we were not allowed to buy our Sprite with it, GAY! So, we hobble down to our seats (cause I forgot to mention that Nate broke his foot, and was on crutches ALL weekend! PRESH) and when I say we got a pre-show, I believe that to be an understatement. The "pre-show" ended in confetti, and this was all BEFORE the movie had even started! I was sooo confused, but then the movie followed directly afterwards. My opinion on the movie: If you like all the other "Pirates" movies, then you will like this one as well. Very well done, and entertaining, although the confetti may have something to do with my opinion!

THEN IT WAS NAP TIME! Thank the Lord!

After naptime, it was MAVS PLAYOFF TIME! Whoop! MFFL!

We went to a spot called "the Spot!" so you know you are in the right place! It is Game 2 against the Miami Heat and we are already down one game after losing in Miami 92-84. F! We posted up, ate some grub, bumped into a few friends, and got ready to try to come back and tie up the series. There, of course, was one SUPER obnoxious Heat fan that was yelling and chanting the WHOLE game, while the rest of the bar seemed more interested in making sure the LeBron lost making them Mavs fans by default! But I will take it! As we started the 4th quarter, I made a vow that if the Mavs came back and won I was going to run over to the guy and run circles around him cheering relentlessly in his face! But OF COURSE as Dallas closed the point deficit and it looked like they might magically take the win, THAT guy is no where to be found! Puss!

The next day... SUSHI! I love myself some sushi.... delicious! After some intense games of Words With Friends and belly full of awesome, we were headed to Disneyland.

YES I SAID IT!

Our plan was quickly derailed when we realized that if we postponed Disney to the following day, we could get better seats at Star Wars in Concert.  I know what you are thinking to yourself, and YES it was UN-freaking-believable. Even Anthony Daniels, who played the original C3PO, was there narrating. But by the end, even LA locals were shivering while shaking their plastic light sabers, so we knew it was time to go! After an EMERGENCY CRIPPLE potty break, and detour through the Hollywood Hills, we finally made it back in one piece.

The next day was a big day.... DISNEYLAND for the opening weekend of the new Star Tours 2.0: 3D Interactive Star Wars Experience!

http://www.studioscentral.com/attractions/star-tours-adventures-continue

And not thinking about the fact that it was a Saturday and going to be completely overrun with children and overweight people who walk WAY too slow for their own good, it was quite entertaining having to wheel Nate around in a wheelchair the entire day. Perks, it was just plain funny, we got to cut a little bit of the line on most of the rides, and it gave me a chair whenever I needed one! After thinking we were going to die in the Temple of Doom due to a ride malfunction, and some really expensive, mediocre park food, and Ty's new $50 Yoda Backpack that I just knew he couldn't live without, our day was complete.

Stop to buy some tequila and beer on the way home, and Saturday is concluded with a crappy horror film! PERFECT!

Wake up Sunday, my last day, and I am feeling unsettled because of HOW settled I feel. I'm sitting on the balcony overlooking the LA skyline as the sun comes up. I get my doodle/notepad that I never leave the house without in case I have a dose of genius pop into my head and have to write it down! Made a few necessary phone calls, kicked my feet up and just enjoyed the beautiful sun, and a pleasant breeze.... 70 degress MAX.

 B-E-A-Utiful! Hell, I even have my cardigan on... well apparently no one told me that you can get super sunburned just sitting in the sun. And because of my LACK of concern over the fact that it wasn't even warm out, My chest and shins proceeded to get a nasty, painful sunburn that is now peeling off of my body! :) But it was worth it. Best reflection time I have had in FOREVER!

Clean up the house a bit, and head to meet my cousin Jeron's BF, Wes (<--- LOVE HIM!) for none other than SUSHI! Then off to the airport!

This trip did a lot of things for me... but mostly cleared my head!

There is really no better way to know if you belong in a place than if you take lots of deep sighs in contentment. Life in Dallas has been beating the shit out of me for years and as much I would loved to have moved a LONG time before now, I finally feel good enough about myself and where I am in life, as well as Tyler's age and the situation with my ex to even consider a move like this!  If I want to continue to make moves and grow, then I don't really feel like I will be able to do it in Dallas. So...

This trip was a big deal to me! I wanted to see a number of things:

1. Could I relax? Collect my thoughts?

2. Do I feel loved and supported?

3. Could I make a life here?

4. Could I work and support myself, and my child away from everyone and everything I am used to having around?

I can honestly say the thing that has been holding me back is ME! I have allowed other people and their negative thoughts and guilt trips hold me back. So, this is my way of letting everyone know that I have made the decision and am currently setting groundwork for a Nov. 1st move to Los Angeles! It's a move that has been a long time coming and severely overdue.  As scary as it is, and as hard as I anticipate it being I truly feel like it is the right decision! Gotta get this show on the rode, cause I am not getting any younger, and my life certainly isn't getting any longer!

Ready......

Set...

           GO!

A picture is worth a thousand words!

  I think the picture says all I need to! I am going to go on a rant before I go on my run this morning to let out some pent up anger!

  First of all, I hate going to bed angry cause I just wake up even more mad! That obviously happened. But I refuse to let it ruin my entire day like it did yesterday, so to prefice this... I am not going to name any names, but I can say this with 100% certainty, I don't give a damn if they know who they are either!

  I don't know who the hell you think you are putting your damn nose where it doesn't belong... in MY business.  And beyond that, you know NOTHING about what you THINK you are making a comment about. Then you want to judge me?!?!?!? I worked with you, and work with people you know.  We aren't close friends, we don't hang out, and you want to come in and act like you are better than me, and make statements about me to people I know "behind my back" in front of me? For real!?!?! Grow the hell up. In the big scheme of my life you are merely a pebble on the road of people I am going to leave behind, and I can assure you that my anger last night that carried over to this morning, and THIS rant is the most attention you will ever get from me. There are a handful of people that this is directed towards and I don't give 2 shits in the wind if they know it.

  None of you are going anywhere, or doing anything with your lives. You are stuck in a world  of mediocrity not because you have settled for a life that you are happy with, but purely because you aren't worth more than that. And no amount of laughs, and drinking are going to wash away the fact that a year from now, 5 years from now, you are still going to be doing the same damn thing, with the same damn people claiming you are happy in your dead end life, and continue to hate on me for making something of myself and leaving negative baggage like you in the dust!

  When it comes to my personal life, it is very personal, and there is no way in hell that you could possibly have enough information to pass a geralized judgement on me. And you know what? Think what you want... I don't care. I am not going to sit here and justify my actions or on goings day-to-day to people who don't even deserve the time I am spending to type this! I am through with this false sense of knowing people. Surface friends aren't friends, and you are not worth being in my life or even being associated with me. I know who I am, what I have done, and what I will do, and I know with all certainty I will NEVER see you at the top. So, I hope you see this, and know it is for you, and find it in your heart to one day thank me for wasting this time on you.

                                                    YOU'RE FUCKING WELCOME!

I hate being annoyed! Wait...I'm not anymore!

This picture is a pretty adequate description of how I feel today! Who wouldn't want to have Melon Peel helmet on their head? And the color... impeccable. It will go with everything! But his face... ANNOYED! I don't know. I think it is part mental exhaustion, and part confusion! There is sooo much floating around in my head right now, and I am not sure that I am handling it well. I mean, my handling things poorly is still handling them well compared to most, so I guess there is no right to complain but sheesh!

I got off work late last night for a shift that I picked up for a friend and co-worker. Turned out to be more then worth it cause I made some much needed money that I didn't have before! But at the same time it was taking away from a night I needed to catch up on some things... like editing videos! I know everyone is waiting for the 3rd installment of the Fit Vlog with baited breath! ;) And there are a plethera of other things that need to be taken care of:
yard work, finishing cleaning, laundry, and making sure everything is ready for my trip to LA as well as the 4 more shoots I have before I leave in 2 weeks! And in all that I need to try to work out and fix this hernia.
Most are really good things, but there is still an element of annoyance that I never seem to be able to get anything done. Of course, I am getting a lot done, but to me it doesnt feel like it.

So as most of my days do, I start out annoyed, and by the end of it... I feel great! I am in a good mood, not nearly annoyed as I should be, and pretty much feeling good!

I woke up, tried to get some yard work done, when I realize that the belt for the power steering is out. Awesome! I get the front yard done and part of the back and have to stop to go get a body wrap done!

There is something miraculous about doing things that are good for you that just have the ability to immediately remove some of the stress from your mind. It is incredible. Things that you were pissed about before, suddenly you can't remember why you were pissed in the 1st place. My theory is that stress is toxic, and produces itself as toxins and nastiness crumming up your body so, when you do a hot power yoga and sweat, or you go into a steam room after a good workout, or you ride a bike out in the fresh air, get a body wrap done.... all of these things cause you to detox, and all of them are natural without any pills or vitamins.  I love to cleanse and detox, so I am in NO WAY bashing a natural herbal cleanse or detox program. I think they are extraordinarily helpful in making sure everything works properly (and I think you know what I mean). *Chuckles to self*

Other added benefits to a body wrap are:
*Cleasnse body of toxins and impurities
*Treats unsightly Cellulite
*No pills or Shots
*Tightens and tones your body
*Conditions and softens skin
*Slimming and Contouring effect
*Rejuvinates and revitalizes
*Fantastic for Psoriasis
*Firms up sagging skin

And.... in addition to all of that, the average person loses between 5 and 15 inches all over in just one visit! This is obviously determined on how much you have to lose, but the results are undeniable and completely painless. Most places also offer other types of treatments to help with problem areas and more moderate concerns, like Dry Skin Brushing! Don't know what that is... well good, cause I am going to save it for another blog! ;)

The place that I went is called Body Wraps by Daphne, and it is located on the North Side of Dallas. I will add their information at the bottom, and they took amazing care of me! I found a coupon on Living Social, and she mentioned that they also do a Groupon. (Will look for a link and include with their info!)


Body Wraps by Daphne
2351 W Northwest Hwy Ste 1305
Dallas, Tx 75220
214-753-6149 
dapsmal@gmail.com
http://daphnebodywraps.webs.com/

So, if you are interested in detoxing yourself of all the sins you commit and poison you willingly put inside your body(and no judgment here cause the shit is fun), want to feel better and lose some inches in the meantime... BODY WRAPS are a good way to go. The results aren't permanent, but I will go into more in my next blog. I will also let you know my results as well, and how many inches I lost (w/pictures...eeek!), and I think you might be surprised! Please if you contact Daphne and decide to do a treatment, let her know that Jessica Lee sent you, and you saw it on her blog. Until then...

I am working on editing  the FitVlog, and will be starting to go into more detail about my diet, and the things that I am doing to ween the amazing results I have gotten, AND there are a bunch of new and exciting things coming up........... PUMPED TO TELL YOU!!!!

Have a great rest of the week guys!
J

I am my own doctor??

Can I heal myself???? THAT is my new question.... and I hope the answer is YES!

A few things that have happened today that I feel pretty good about, and am interested to see what happens with them...

1. I have a hernia. It sucks. At first it was just a little tender and didn't really hurt so I wasn't concerned... all that much. But as a precaution, I stopped working out. SUCKY! I had made a lot of really good progress and had some tremendous results, and then had to stop which threw me and my new routine completely for a loop! BUT, I met this lady who said that she HAD a hernia and she healed it herself, and had recommended it to others who claim that they were able to wein the same results from the simple use of ALOE! 100% pure aloe juice. I had never even thought of it. Here is a website that lists all of the benefits if you are interested...
http://www.misalud.com/aloejuice.html
of course, simply google-ing it works too and they all say the same thing! You will reap almost immediate hair, skin and nail benefits. Helps with detoxifying your system, and there are lots of digestive and stomach benefits as well. AND has been shown to help in the treatment of some fatal illnesses like cancer! SO, wither way, I think it is safe to say that it is beneficial for me to take it. Even if it just helps with my puny little nails, that will not stop peeling, and irritating the PISS out of me.


2.Cassy, my roomie, and Seester, is talking about going into the military. In most instances I would be hesitant, and wary of allowing someone to jump right into that, BUT for some reason I agree that this MAY be her best option. It is disciplined, and stable and would teach her a skill, and allow her to go back to school, and hopefully get her life back on track. It is the first super logical thing she has said to me about her future in a while. Scary, but logical. We will see how that turns out, but I thought it was interesting!


3. Today I had a Parent/Teacher conference with my ex at my son's school. I am always afraid of these things because I know exactly what is going to happen.... My ex will play this little innocent angel and appear to be the best person IN THE WORLD, and try to make me seem unstable and then I will get defensive and we will start pointing the finger at eachother, and pass the blame around like a hot potato. This poor teacher had to listen to us yell and bicker for like 45 min, and I honestly think we should have paid her for her time. So we accomplish nothing at this meeting and then proceed to get into the car so he can drop me back off and we start at is again....... yelling, cursing, and blaming one another... and then something miraculous happened! I yelled, "STOP!" really loud, and we did. And then we parked the truck and had an actual conversation. We actually resolved some things, and for the first time in a LONG time I think we are on the same page. It was weird.... and though I am going to do my best to maintain it, I am still going to take advantage of this window that I have and work as many things out as possible.

4. Giving myself a mani/pedi is simply JUST not the same, but I am going to do it cause mama is BROKE and needs her nails tended to! lol.... Talk to you guys soon!!!1
J

Today has been a hard day...

This is literally just going to be a rant, and have no actual form or flow to it at all. I apologize in advance, but I need to get some shit off my chest!

I thought I was grumpy yesterday, and it was Friday the 13th. But today I woke up and it was even worse....

Nothing has gone right this week, and that SUCKS! I have felt poopy, and have a hernia.... and been taken advantage of ALL week. I finally hit my breaking point. Sucks!!!!!!!! The thing with me is that I love to be surrounded by fun and laughter. I want everyone around me to be happy and successful and feel loved. The problem is that sometimes that puts me in a position to be completely screwed over. And of course I take it personally. Everything I do comes from the heart, so that is the place the hurt goes if it doesn't work out.

This seemed most apparent to me in my most recent relationship. I have really only had one in the last year and a half, and there really is NOT much I can say as to how you would classify this one. I can't even tell you exactly how long we were together.... hmmmmmmm.

Anyway, so there I am, single and not miserable, and in walks this guy who I have known for the better part of a year, and he is successful and driven and divorced with kids... he makes me laugh and he understands my situation and how much I work, and we just seemed to "fit".  There were so many people who were like, "Yes, this makes sense." POWER COUPLE is how we were described.  We crammed a year's worth of a relationship into the 1st month. Next thing I know, we are talking about the future and everything that entails, and how we envisioned life with each other.... and then 2 months later..... and I haven't talked to him since. Not one word. and it has been months.... and nothing.

I have to be honest, other than my marriage I have NEVER been THAT forgiving and THAT understanding, and sacrificed THAT much to try to make a relationship work. I did absolutely EVERYTHING that I could to make the most of it, and he didn't even have the decency to break up with me.  Such a slap in the face. BUT, there are some lessons to be learned here.................

                                      I just am not sure what they are and if I have learned them yet.

I want to be cynical about relationships, and say that they don't work for this, this, and this reason. I want to say "Fuck Guys!" and all their immaturity and indecisiveness. I am finally in this place where I feel secure with who I am, and who I want to be, where I want to go, and what I want to do.... and I have no one to share it with.

There is someone... this intangible person that I see in my dreams nightly. This one man who makes up every star in my sky.  I want to hold him... I want to kiss the back of his neck, right at the hairline, and lightly rest my head on the back of his head. I want to wake up to morning coffee and have lunch under an umbrella on a beach.  And as romantic and poetic and fantasy like this all sounds... he and I have done all of these things before.  I know what we had, and I know what I lost.  And I know it was my fault. SO........

I have started to believe that I have been hurt repeatedly to pay me back for the pain that I have also caused.

I think they call this karma.  I can only hope that I have done enough good since then to tilt the scales back into my favor, because I will see this man soon, and then... only then... will we know.

Until then I am doing the best I can to take advantage of every second of every day, and make the most of it. I WILL succeed this time, and failure is NOT an option. I will do what it takes, and nothing less. I will not let life, a man, or anyone or thing beat me down this time. I will not allow nay-sayers to creep into my head an place some false sense of doubt inside because deep down... I know better. I have been there, and I have seen it. I have felt it and tasted it, and I crave it once again...

                              

                              Happiness...

                                              Success...

                                                            Security....

                                                                            Peace!

And soon... It will be mine.

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